Nexus Khan

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I stepped in the office on Tuesday morning with excitement, the joy of discovery. On my mahogany desk, lies a portfolio in velvet sleeve. On the cover, was the insignia- Safya Khan. The research on the diva was completed by the team and it is up to me now, to make the perfect pitch and get the deal signed. The sensational diva, the adoration of many around the world, women wants to be her, men wants their women to be like her. She is becoming the icon for the modern women. It's not her beauty that makes her such, it is her character. The way her eyes glitter whenever she smiles.

Marie stepped in hurriedly into the office, 'you are not going to believe who just called to fix an appointment with you'. 'Hmmm, The POTUS?' the sheepish smile planted on my face. Marie has been astonished with my transformation, apparently she told my partner that I am much calmer now no matter what the circumstances are, she used to 'fear' the sight of me, but now, she flashes a wide smile upon seeing me every morning. Orion was right perhaps, by being calm, things just flow in the right direction, it's all about how one reacts to the situation.

As I hang up a phone call today, I declared to myself, '28 freakin years of my life, and I still can't figure out WHAT WOMEN WANT!!!' I thought it was just me amidst countless women I've met in life, every type of woman you could imagine. So I called iMan, and asked him the same thing- the answer he gave (knowing him) does not warrant publishing but he then asked a guy who's 30 plus AND married, even that dude was clueless! So it's not just me!

Ever heard the saying, ‘behind every successful man, there is a woman’? I say a**wipe! That is the most ridiculous, unbelievable, absurd statement! In reality, behind every successful man, there are many women making it happen for him. From his mother that cares for him selflessly, the sister that looks after him, the teacher that gives him education to be a better man, the boss who guides him into the career world, the friend who shares tears with him, the girlfriend that makes him feel loved, the wife that stands by him thru thick and thin and for every moment of his life- someone that looks after him...

I walked the path of loneliness for a while, till I met Orion, her character is such, that one would find himself engrossed listening to her, from the way she talked about the recent election and it’s results. Sitting down with her and sipping the latte isn’t the common indulgence of coffee but more of an intellectual journey that I’d appreciate.

How do you define the sight of a shooting star, when you look up to the sky on a Thursday evening when you feel lonely? Do you make a wish, or do you consider it as an amazing phenomenal astronomical occurrence? Nexus makes a wish, closes his eyes and envisions Orion’s presence in his life. He could say millions of things, he could write long poetries praising Orion’s beauty, he could write a lengthy story telling the world of how amazing Orion is. But no, tonight, he looks up to the passing star and makes a wish, a simple wish placed in words...

I can only give you love that lasts forever and a promise to be near each time you call, and the only heart I own is for you alone. That’s all... that’s all... I can only give you country walks in spring time and a hand to hold when leaves begin to fall, and love whose burning light will warm the winter night. That’s all... that’s all...

As I walked out onto the pathway, the sheer joy and anticipation was building deep inside, Orion awaits my arrival and was on the line talking, while walking on the direction facing away from me. I stood in my track just looking at the enchanting beauty, with her wavy hair flowing graciously, like the waves that touches the shores of a white sandy beach. Simply captivating. ‘If you keep walking away from me, I might just have to dine alone... ’, a simple statement I uttered. Like a gracious ballerina, Orion turned facing me, I can’t explain the feeling that was deep inside, as every step she took towards me, I was being mesmerized by her beauty.

The next day started well, with memories from last night still fresh in my mind, often at times, you see me smiling to myself as I drive my car in the heavy traffic of the morning. Somewhere somehow, I knew the day’s going to be one of those days where everything just turns out right... ‘Good morning everybody!’, a thunderous morning greeting from the guy who usually steps right into his office and you could see his secretary trailing behind, knowing well to deliver bad news first so that she could step out safe and sound after delivering the good news.

If you know me well enough, one fact would be distinguishable about me, 95% of my life revolves around a particular race in Malaysia. The race I speak off is certainly different than the race stated on my birth certificate. I often get questioned, why do you hang out with a different race? Why them and not us? What is so great in girls from that race or the common classic one, why do you want to risk losing the ‘opportunities’.

I stood in her walkway, accompanied by slight breeze of wind, the air was cold but I was nervous, waiting for Orion, every second that passes seems to be an eternity. What should I say? Where should I take her to? Where should we dine? Funny how a man would seem clueless on what to do when it involves moments that relate well to every beat of his heart.

Last Tuesday started like any other day, filled with things to do… amidst that, her sms came in, she needed to confess! Dropped everything and called her out for coffee, a friend here need to confess, nothing could be more important right… right? Her first line blew me away, ‘when I look into the mirror, I see a reflection of you, I became you!’ . Expected confession would be that she has feelings for me etc, the typical hapless romantic I am! But no, she meant the playa me, not the lovey me!

She was sitting 3 tables away, right in the direction of my eyes, with her hair flowing freely, wavy and the sunglasses tucked as hair band, she couldn’t stand them coming between her and her book while she took moments in between to sip her coffee, most probably a latte. Her expressions changes showing countless emotions as her brown eyes trail down the pages and she engulfs herself in the words placed within the books.

When I extend a hand of friendship, it becomes momentous occasion and when I make an enemy, histories are created! Can’t believe how true this is for me. No one loves having enemies, but when I go to war, I ensure total annihilation to the enemy that calls upon the war itself. When diplomacy doesn’t work, and circumstances triggers the alarm, I go to war with one objective and one objective only… TO WIN! Call me mean, evil, or any other words you might have, but hey, you either kill or be killed!

For those who have read my earlier post titled 'Lifetime Decisions'... this is my sharing of the day! I am truly happy today, so happy that I feel I'm walking among the stars. It might not be a big deal for you, but for me, this is the beginning to rising glorious, to rise for the moment that I am created for! The Khan is finally back.

It’s funny how things usually turn up in a relationship. You could wake up one morning fully charged to face the day, put on your power suit and say this day is mine. You feel energetic and on top of the world. Out of nowhere in your day’s rush, you see her passing by, someone that is truly captivating and you say to yourself, ‘this lady is a dream come true’… you get the drift, so no point telling you the rest.